As some of you know, I have been struggling this fall semester with
FEAR. Mostly it has been in my classes. I really felt
oppressed. I mean, I taught one of these classes this summer (you'd think 2 sections 2 days a week after not being in the classroom for 20 years AND planning a
wedding for 300 at my house would have done me in); however, this fall has just been a struggle, to the point of
dreading having to show up. I imagined all my students just staring at me, thinking things like, "You are the
dumbest, most
boring, worst teacher I have
ever had!" It made me nervous and then I really did look like a dummy as I stumbled over my words and information that I
KNOW. Anyway, I began sharing this and asking
you to pray, and because I so often forget or neglect to give
God the praise and glory for His answers big and small, and because I want to
thank you faithful friends for praying, I am posting now. Last week things went better; I wondered if it was because I was collecting assignments and listening to speeches and wasn't having to be in front as much, but no, it really
IS better,
praise the LORD! This week went very well. I felt I had a handle on my information, that it was coming out more clearly, and I may even be
helping some students! It's Thursday and class is over till Tuesday, and I actually
enjoyed this week! I enjoyed it this summer, and I was wondering what was going on. I think this may be and ongoing
battle as I fight for
joy and
right and true thoughts and
positive emotions in every day life, but what a
blessing to have this gift of reassurance right now.
Thank you,
thank you, dear friends, for praying.
Thank you, dear Lord, for being ever faithful and
loving and merciful; when I am weak, You are strong.