Thoughts on Forgiveness I Ponder

I don't even know if anyone ever reads this, but sometimes I get these ideas that just won't go away--and I want so badly to share them --and I don't know how or where (frustrating!). So in the interest of relieving my mind and heart, I will put them here and who knows?

I've dealt with forgiveness issues for the last 20-some months in a BIG way , more than ever before. God has ripped me to shreds many times (in a good way!) during this time. Anyway, there are a couple songs out right now that hit the nails on the heads and I just want to share them with you. If you can, please look them up and listen to them!!! Much better with music. I wish I knew how to post the links but I remain woefully inept at such technical matters. Anyway, I hope you might look at these lyrics and see if they speak to your hearts at all.
A few lines that jump out at me--forgiveness:
 hardest thing to give away, always goes to those who don't deserve, opposite of how (I) feel,  It flies in the face of all (my) pride, Help me now to give what You gave to me,

 Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them, Cause I feel like the one losin'

Cause Lord it doesn't feel right for me to turn a blind eye; we think our pain’s owed apologies and then it will all stop--Well, truth be told, it doesn't matter IF THEY'RE SORRY OR NOT, even when the jury and the judge say (I) got a right to hold a grudge; the prisoner that it really frees is (me) 
 Love to you and glory to Jesus!--sue

"Forgiveness"  by Matthew West

It’s the hardest thing to give away

And the last thing on your mind today

It always goes to those that don’t deserve

It’s the opposite of how you feel

When the pain they caused is just too real

It takes everything you have just to say the word…

Forgiveness

Forgiveness

It flies in the face of all your pride

It moves away the mad inside

It’s always anger’s own worst enemy

Even when the jury and the judge

Say you got a right to hold a grudge

It’s the whisper in your ear saying ‘Set It Free’

Forgiveness, Forgiveness

Forgiveness, Forgiveness

Show me how to love the unlovable

Show me how to reach the unreachable

Help me now to do the impossible

Forgiveness, Forgiveness

Help me now to do the impossible

Forgiveness

It’ll clear the bitterness away

It can even set a prisoner free

There is no end to what its power can do

So, let it go and be amazed

By what you see through eyes of grace

The prisoner that it really frees is you

Forgiveness, Forgiveness

Forgiveness, Forgiveness

Show me how to love the unlovable

Show me how to reach the unreachable

Help me now to do the impossible

Forgiveness

I want to finally set it free

So show me how to see what Your mercy sees

Help me now to give what You gave to me

Forgiveness, Forgiveness

I can't believe what she said

I can't believe what he did

Oh, don't they know it's wrong

Don't they know it's wrong

Well maybe there's something I missed

But how could they treat me like this

It's wearing out my heart

The way they disregard

This is love or this is hate...

We all have a choice to make

Oh, Father won’t You forgive them

They don't know what they've been doin' (oh no)

Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them

Cause I feel like the one losin'

Well it's only the dead that can live

But still I wrestle with this:

To lose the pain that's mine

Seventy times seven times

Cause Lord it doesn't feel right

For me to turn a blind eye

Though I guess it's not that much

When I think of what You've done.

This is love or this is hate...

We got a choice to make

Oh Father won't You forgive them

They don't know what they've been doin' (oh no)

Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them

Cause I feel like the one losin'

Why do we think that our hate's gonna change their hard heart

We're up in arms over wars that don't need to be fought

Cause pride won’t let us lay our weapons on the ground

We build our bridges up but it's just to burn them down

We think our pain’s owed apologies and then it will all stop

Well truth be told it doesn't matter if they’re sorry or not

Cause freedom comes when we surrender to the sound

Of Your mercy and Your grace, Father, send Your angels down

[x2]

Oh Father wont you forgive them

They don't know what they've been doin'

Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them

Cause I feel like the one losin'

I feel like I've been losing

Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them

Cause I feel like the one losin'